This week has been a very hmmm…what should I call it… emotional week for me…

Maybe it’s that time of the month again, maybe not… I don’t know… I’m a bit confused myself.

All I know is that, I don’t like not being able to speak my mind…hence, this blog entry.

Well, it hurts… a lot. And it’s not even just emotional pain, you know when you actually feel it in your chest, like it tightens and you just literally feel the pain inside of you… that’s how I feel right now. And I wish a pack of gummy bears or some Jello can fix everything, but I’m so depressed, I’m not even craving for them.

I just thought you’d spare me. Ugh. When you’re in a “situation” with someone, you always think, with you, it’s different, you are an exception to the rule, he will not treat you like any other girl, you are special, all that jazz… and then you realize, you were wrong… he can just fool you just like everyone else. It’s like falling in love with a bad boy cos somehow you think, you’ll be the girl who’ll make him flip…

what makes my experience more annoying is that, I didn’t even think he was a “bad” boy… which totally sucks because I have been “protecting” his name and all.

Basically, I was played… by someone I thought I knew, someone I completely trusted to be a decent person. And yeah, I thought he was the right one, I was so ready to give up so many things for him, I was so excited to start something with him… To be there for him, to make him happy, to be part of his life not just as anyone but as someone special…

He broke my heart. And that was kind of okay… I’d get over it, eventually.

But the story doesn’t end there… I just found out that he played with my heart too. That one, isn’t okay. And that one I can’t get over.

Life sucks.

You suck.

So… I’m sorry dear readers(if anyone is reading). Instead of bottling it all up, I’m just pouring my heart out… so, yeah. Raise your glass and bottoms up!